edit FRIDAY THE 13TH!! O:

summary of this journal: "I am so happy I could die freezing. winter is the best and happy friday the 13th :b"



HEY GUYS!!

I am so freaking happy today you have no idea.

It's the winter I swear! I love winter so much. it's NOT the holiday or that crap. it's just...it JUST IS. I been always in better mood in winter for some reason.

It's not HYPER-OMG-AWESOME happiness. It's just happiness for NOOOO reason, and it's kinda annoying but it's awesome. just awesome I feel really really great

and yeah something horrible happened today though :b Friday the 13th YOU NEVER FAIL ME!


_{<whatHappened>
well I worked ALL NIGHT on this tripple homework. I spent most of the time on this one. I didn't procrastinate that much. In fact, I BARELY procrastinated since 9 PM to 8 AM!!! I was on fire doing these homeworks. I felt like I can get 100% on all three!! the homework had a little reasearch paper and bunch of hard calculations and lastely something I was proud of. but I ended up...not handing it in. BECUASE I HAD TO GO TO BATHROOM. I WAS 2 MIN LATE AND I COULDNT HAND THE HOMEWORK IN ANYMORE. usually I would've not cared but NOT THE HOMEWORK I SPENT 2123098132890 HOURS ON!! x_x then I got angry because my eye kept watering. and I had no napkin. LOL stupid me
</whatHappened>}


but in the end I feel like....I can't explain this. It's just HAPPINESS. BELIEVE IT!! this just makes me really feel like doing something but not sure. but today I was happy as hell (and cold as hell)

I love coldness. the smell of dryness (no sarcasm here). if I could, I really wish I could die during winter, freezing to death. I know some people who just HATE HATE winter but yeah I have many reason to hate winter too. I just like it because winter literlately bring the time back. (as in...I feel like my old self during the winter)

it's so GREAT I could kiss all of you!!!!!11 or even have courage to be center of attention!! OOOMMGGG HUGGIZZLE!!!!! ;0;


winter really rocks. nostalgia is over! it's going to come back but whatever


aaaaaAAAAAHH!! the happiness is growing bigger at the moment. now I really feel like I am going to cry I feel go great this is werid. I feel like I can take over the world with my...WRENCH!! now I am slightly shaking. I am just so so happy. NO I AM NOT DRUNK.


a little note on the last journal. ------V

I am not STOPPING drawing. no no no. I just wanted to explain why I am..you know. not hanging out much.

I thought I was making too many people worry o_O; no no please. it's not necessary!!

ALL IN ALL. I hope you all had a great day!!!!11 hahahrhae sorry for all the ruckus. I am just too happy right now

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old content

I kiiiiiiiiiinda feel angry

and kiiiiiiiiiiiiinda want to kill someone. not random people. probably like...eh...meh

and I kiiiiiiiiiiiiiinda want to break this computer into exactly 5 pieces....with a strand of hair...what the hell am I typing

and I kiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii iinda want to bang myhead on the corner of this desk.

and I kiiiiiiiiiiiinda feel like looking for a box cutter. and cut...............eraser. (lol. FOOL'D YA), I mean seriuosly. it's so much fun. they cut so easy

and I kiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinda don't feel like studying for my programming quiz. yes I shall fail. FAAAIIILLL




on the other hand.

I kiiiiiinda feel like animating something. ONLY IF I CAN GET MYSELF SOME TIME.

I kiiiiiiinda feel like doing something with these new CSS feature! I've seen people's journal transforming and evolving. so awesome. I shall try....IF I GET SOME TIME



conclusion.

System.out.println("just wanted to say HI D:");

if (meehyun == 'emo')

{
int displayDigit = 2;
system.out.println("having" + displayDigit + " exams in one day \n" + "stink" + "");
}




edit on OCT 9TH
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summary...for people who don't like reading big writings : I will be very busy. actually I been busy. which explains the inactivity ): sorry sorry sorry sorry. thank you thank you thank you you are all too kind!!!! and I love you all!! ;_; its sad I can't really express the true feeling just through text since I am not a good writer ]: <




I don't think I can really make it ]; as in, being active ENOUGH in here. sure I can log on and off but really can't get myself as active as I have in the past o_o

I have not been active since I realized I need to get almost all B's in this semester. (yeah. I am not smart enough to get all A's in here :b )it just scares me to hell. I can't really help myself from appearing dead or even "emo".

<sub>there IS a possibility that they will not let me stay in the school anymore if I get any lower than what I have calculated. (currently trying to find more information. god I am in trouble LOL) plus, because of some condition I am taking extra course. which makes my school a little load heavier than last time




I feel so horrible that I am not replying and not reading enough/commenting enough journals, deviations, notes, or even instant messaging and doing any other possible communication related activities.</sub>

I just fear more and more that someone WILL think me lowly for being lazy or thinking that I am careless of what is happening to others. that is not true...and it is silly of me to think such way TOO. I know I am thinking stupidly but fear doesn't seem to be something I can just stop it physically. perhaps it's that something I suffer. it's not like I am mentally unstable so it does give me some hope.

but first of all, I am not dying off from DA. I am not here to tell all of you how horrible I feel at the moment either. everything really is A-OKAY. I just wish to warn you all the situation I am in at the moment. and it WILL keep me quite busy. I will probably don't have time to draw/animate for MYSELF (if I have to draw a gift art. that's a must depend on time being. if I can make someone happy I am most likely to do it anyway)


<sub>lately a lot of people on my watch list seems to be having hard times. I am so sorry that I cannot give out long comforting comments quickly. it just makes me so sad that I am doing homework while others are in greater stress that of mine. that once comforted me and who am I to not give anything in return? also those who await me on internet to talk to, who am I to not return in time?

how stupid of me that I cause irritation to mind that is not mine!! (rhymes are fun)

I want to give joy not pain!</sub>


well anyway. for all the babblings and nonsense I typed, the conclusion...I don't really know what to say. I guess I am just here to give you an explanation. no change announced here. I am just really busy and...I really wish no misunderstanding or bad assumptions occurs! it just makes me really worried.



for all who are being watched by me. I have my eyes open. I really do wish I was just everywhere talking talking talking to everyone till the world ends. there are so many interesting people on my watchlist AND people that I don't watch (but comments often. I do recognize many people you know >:C) AND in real life. I really...rather listen than talk most of the time. although I can't...say to individuals but I want to thank you all of you so far for being awesome, cool and unique and....looking at my gallery and saying really nice stuff!

meh. only if things were just as how it was in the past.... ]: >


well, lets see how things goes...shall we? o: